Dry spell

As I mentioned in my previous post, I don’t have an online playmate. For those not in the know, I only have cyber sex of the text and cam/voice kind. It’s been a year, I think, since T and I last played, and he was my regular playmate. I’ve had a couple one-offs with people since him, but they were few and far in between. I really miss having a regular fuck. The thing is, I can’t be arsed to find a new playmate. I’ve learned long ago that I’m not good with just casual fucking around. I have to at least like the person and be friendly with them. And it’s a pain in the ass going through all of the initial shit to find out if I’m even interested in fucking the person. Too often it leads to nothing or it goes to shit really quickly. I tried Adult Friend Finder, but the guys who contacted me were just annoying or were looking for what I said I wasn’t looking for in my profile. So blah. So, I’m often torn between the strong desire to have a playmate and having no desire to seek one out. Yeah, I’m sad like that.

So, what am I going to do about it? I don’t know. Some days I wish I had absolutely no libido. Other days I’m daydreaming and squirming in my chair thinking about cocks and fucking….

Oh, by the way, I have made some progress in seeking out someone to date offline. First I propositioned a cute girl; she had a girlfriend. Then, I approached a cute boy. Yeah, he was unavailable, too (fiancee). But those were two HUGE moves for me because I’ve never been the kind of person to approach anyone. It helped that they both worked at places where I saw and talked to them a lot, so I was more comfortable approaching them. I don’t approach complete strangers ever…only incomplete strangers. Couldn’t resist.

Anyway, I’m going through a dry spell and I don’t see any end in sight.