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I’ve been very antsy and restless of late. I need some things that I’m not currently getting.

One thing I need is some Skype time with one of my boys. Alas, that won’t be happening for a while. A has a new live-in girlfriend so he hasn’t been on Skype of late. I’m extremely happy for him, but I realize it’ll be harder for him to find time to talk to me. We didn’t speak all that often to begin with, so now the conversations will be fewer and farther in between. M is still on vacation for another week or two. T is still holding me at arm’s length. He refuses to let me voice with him on Skype or see him on cam. He seems to think it’ll help us to avoid “dust-ups.” I don’t know where he gets this idea as being on Skype together wasn’t the problem. I recently told him my patience is not infinite ,so we’ll see which gives out first–his resolve or my patience.

My need to see and talk to my boys is pretty strong. If I go too long without seeing any of them I get, well, antsy and restless. And it’s not the same with my female friends. I love them and enjoy speaking with them, but my boys will always be my preference.

The other thing I need is sexual dominance. I’ve been longing for that for a while, and while T did dominant me to an extent, is not at the level I want it to be. And I don’t think he’s the type for it. Even after all this time I do miss how D dominated me. M was good at dominating, but it’s been ages since we’ve played that way. I’m hoping he’ll want to dominate me once he returns from vacation, but at this point I just want to see him naked on cam and hear his voice as we fuck. Damn, how I miss it. I don’t even have pictures of him; I deleted the ones I had when he disappeared. I don’t know if I mentioned this before, but we supposed to fuck before he went on vacation, but a series of mishaps (mostly on his part) prevented us from doing so. I was only slightly resentful. Mostly disappointed.

Ah, well. At least work keeps me busy. Hopefully some day in the not too distant future I’ll get what I want and need, because I’m getting very frustrated.

One Response to “Need”

  1. SF Sex Toy says:

    “The other thing I need is sexual dominance” Now that’s cool. Love your blog colors btw! :)

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